Wednesday, October 12, 2005

you

i seriously am going outta my mind.
you can jolly well ask fareehah how i was like the whole day.

i had to tell you something that night.
i know i've been a bitch, a jerk.
i know what i've been doing to you.
i know you're angry at me bout that comment on BOYS.

i have insecurities, faisal.
i have troubles with myself.
i know i trouble you every night with my stupid questions.
cause i'm insecure.
i don't wanna lose even though i know i did.
both of us are egoistical and stubborn.
both of us know, there's nothing left for us anymore.
i wish i could be your bestfriend again.
i wish i could stand up for you when people talk bad about you.
i wanna throw away that feeling of being "more than friends"
i still habour those feelings.
i still have hopes even though i know it is impossible.
i knew everything was fine.
but, inside me i wasn't.
i wasn't fine at all. i still had pain in me.
too much, that i dunno what else to do.
i used to have you when i'm in pain.
i used to have you when i cry every night.
i used to have you when i whine about every little thing in this world.
i used to have you for everything.
that's why you were my bestfriend.
because you were there when i was sad, happy, when i need cheering up, when i cried.

i am sorry for everything i've done to you.
though the pain cannot be erase.
though i might not be forgiven.
though i know it's impossible to be your bestfriend again.

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